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:''While me and Xaldin explored Beast's Castle, we found something he wants to
:''While me and Xaldin explored Beast's Castle, we found something he wants to
protect...Xaldin says that's a weakness, but I'm not so sure. What does it
:''protect...Xaldin says that's a weakness, but I'm not so sure. What does it
mean to care about something that much? I don't, so it's hard to wrap my head
:''mean to care about something that much? I don't, so it's hard to wrap my head
around the whole idea.''  
:''around the whole idea.''  


===Day 149: WINNER===
===Day 149: WINNER===
:''Today's mission took me to a new world. It was a weird place. I was up on the
:''Today's mission took me to a new world. It was a weird place. I was up on the
clock tower afterwards when Axel turned up after being away forever. He said he
:''clock tower afterwards when Axel turned up after being away forever. He said he
finished that long mission. But this time Xion didn't show.''
:''finished that long mission. But this time Xion didn't show.''


:''I was gonna give Axel that WINNER stick, but I should wait until I get another
:''I was gonna give Axel that WINNER stick, but I should wait until I get another
one. It wouldn't be fair to leave Xion out.''
:''one. It wouldn't be fair to leave Xion out.''


===Day 150: Too Precious to Lose===
===Day 150: Too Precious to Lose===
'Xion didn't come to the clock tower again today. She and Saïx had some kind of
:''Xion didn't come to the clock tower again today. She and Saïx had some kind of
argument.''
:''argument.''


:''Axel and I talked for a while about the things we can't bear to lose. Axel
:''Axel and I talked for a while about the things we can't bear to lose. Axel
thinks that for Nobodies, it's our pasts, because that's all we have to
:''thinks that for Nobodies, it's our pasts, because that's all we have to
remember the pain of losing something. I don't remember my past, but the idea
:''remember the pain of losing something. I don't remember my past, but the idea
of losing the present—Axel or Xion—scares me.''
:''of losing the present—Axel or Xion—scares me.''


===Day 151: What Makes Us Different===
===Day 151: What Makes Us Different===
:''I ran into Xion in Twilight Town. I guess she messed up a mission pretty bad
:''I ran into Xion in Twilight Town. I guess she messed up a mission pretty bad
the other day, and it's been bugging her.''
:''the other day, and it's been bugging her.''


:''We went up to the clock tower afterwards. She said me and her are different—
:''We went up to the clock tower afterwards. She said me and her are different—
which is pretty obvious if you look at us, but I don't think that's what she
:''which is pretty obvious if you look at us, but I don't think that's what she
meant. A lot seems to be on her mind, and it's not the same as what's on mine.''
:''meant. A lot seems to be on her mind, and it's not the same as what's on mine.''


===Day 152: I Don't Get It===
===Day 152: I Don't Get It===
:''I think Xion might be mad at me, but I don't know why. Axel says girls are
:''I think Xion might be mad at me, but I don't know why. Axel says girls are
complicated. You can't press the wrong buttons. Like I'm supposed to know what
:''complicated. You can't press the wrong buttons. Like I'm supposed to know what
the right ones are.''
:''the right ones are.''


===Day 153: No Taste for It===
===Day 153: No Taste for It===
:''It's hard spending time with Xion, and Axel seems busy, too. I've been having
:''It's hard spending time with Xion, and Axel seems busy, too. I've been having
ice cream alone, but it's just not the same. All I taste is the salt, and my
:''ice cream alone, but it's just not the same. All I taste is the salt, and my
hands get all sticky. It's like I'm going through the motions of eating it just
:''hands get all sticky. It's like I'm going through the motions of eating it just
so I can throw the stick out and get on with life. I must've had about a
:''so I can throw the stick out and get on with life. I must've had about a
hundred of these things, and I still haven't found another WINNER.''
:''hundred of these things, and I still haven't found another WINNER.''


:''I never did find a way to ask Xion about the pictures that go through my head.
:''I never did find a way to ask Xion about the pictures that go through my head.
I don't really know what to do about anything right now.''
:''I don't really know what to do about anything right now.''


===Day 171: What's Love?===
===Day 171: What's Love?===
:''On my mission at Beast's Castle, Xaldin told me about "love" and the special
:''On my mission at Beast's Castle, Xaldin told me about "love" and the special
power it has over people.''
:''power it has over people.''


:''I tried to ask Axel about it, but his explanation didn't make any sense to me.
:''I tried to ask Axel about it, but his explanation didn't make any sense to me.
Every time I ask him about this kind of thing, he tells me I need a heart to
:''Every time I ask him about this kind of thing, he tells me I need a heart to
understand. It's like he's dodging the questions.''
:''understand. It's like he's dodging the questions.''


===Day 172: Xion Collapsed===
===Day 172: Xion Collapsed===
:''Xion failed her mission and now she's in a deep sleep. I thought they were
:''Xion failed her mission and now she's in a deep sleep. I thought they were
lying to me when they told me, but I went to see her, and she really was just
:''lying to me when they told me, but I went to see her, and she really was just
asleep. I left a seashell by her pillow, just like she did for me.''
:''asleep. I left a seashell by her pillow, just like she did for me.''


:''Saïx hates her. I don't know why. Maybe he knows more about her than the rest
:''Saïx hates her. I don't know why. Maybe he knows more about her than the rest
of us do.''
:''of us do.''


:''Those pictures flashed through my mind again on today's mission (the same boy
:''Those pictures flashed through my mind again on today's mission (the same boy
in red as usual). I guess he's been to Wonderland. I'm still trying to figure
:''in red as usual). I guess he's been to Wonderland. I'm still trying to figure
out what it is I'm seeing.''
:''out what it is I'm seeing.''


===Day 173: Picking Up the Slack===
===Day 173: Picking Up the Slack===
:''I've decided to work harder while Xion is asleep to pick up some of the slack.
:''I've decided to work harder while Xion is asleep to pick up some of the slack.
Axel said he asked Saïx about her, but no dice. He did say that Saïx was having
:''Axel said he asked Saïx about her, but no dice. He did say that Saïx was having
second thoughts about calling her broken, though.''
:''second thoughts about calling her broken, though.''


:''I just hope we get all this drama ironed out soon, so she doesn't have to wake
:''I just hope we get all this drama ironed out soon, so she doesn't have to wake
up to it.''
:''up to it.''


===Day 174: Seashells for Her===
===Day 174: Seashells for Her===
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:''Me and Axel talk about the dumbest stuff now. Afterwards we head back to the
:''Me and Axel talk about the dumbest stuff now. Afterwards we head back to the
castle, and I leave a seashell by Xion's pillow. It would please me to see her
:''castle, and I leave a seashell by Xion's pillow. It would please me to see her
smile when she finds them.''
:''smile when she finds them.''


:''Those pictures flashed through my head again in Never Land. And when I flew, it
:''Those pictures flashed through my head again in Never Land. And when I flew, it
felt like I'd done it before. Has the guy in red flown before, is that it?''
:''felt like I'd done it before. Has the guy in red flown before, is that it?''


===Day 193: Best Friends===
===Day 193: Best Friends===
:''Xion's awake now. The three of us were gonna go get some ice cream after our
:''Xion's awake now. The three of us were gonna go get some ice cream after our
mission, but she passed out again, so we had to take her home.''
:''mission, but she passed out again, so we had to take her home.''


:''I talked with Axel in her room until she woke up. He said the three of us were
:''I talked with Axel in her room until she woke up. He said the three of us were
best friends—inseparable.''
:''best friends—inseparable.''


===Day 194: Even Far Apart===
===Day 194: Even Far Apart===
:''We've all started going back to our usual spot after work. Sometimes Axel and
:''We've all started going back to our usual spot after work. Sometimes Axel and
Xion are there waiting for me, other times I get there first.''
:''Xion are there waiting for me, other times I get there first.''


:''Things have gotten busier for us, so we can't all make it every day. But even
:''Things have gotten busier for us, so we can't all make it every day. But even
if they're not there, at least now it seems like we're together again. I wonder
:''if they're not there, at least now it seems like we're together again. I wonder
if it seems that way to them, too.''
:''if it seems that way to them, too.''


:''I forgot to ask Xion about the pictures in my head again...It was the same kid
:''I forgot to ask Xion about the pictures in my head again...It was the same kid
in red. Who is he? What does he have to do with me?''
:''in red. Who is he? What does he have to do with me?''


===Day 224: What's Gotten Into Her?===
===Day 224: What's Gotten Into Her?===
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:''Axel said we should all go to the beach next time we get a vacation. I think he
:''Axel said we should all go to the beach next time we get a vacation. I think he
senses something is wrong, too. That's why he suggested the beach—to make her
:''senses something is wrong, too. That's why he suggested the beach—to make her
feel better.''
:''feel better.''


===Day 225: Something Must Be Wrong===
===Day 225: Something Must Be Wrong===
:''Okay, now I'm really worried about Xion. I told Axel, but all he said was that
:''Okay, now I'm really worried about Xion. I told Axel, but all he said was that
she'll get through it.''
:''she'll get through it.''


:''He knows something is wrong. I bet he's just telling me that to put my mind at
:''He knows something is wrong. I bet he's just telling me that to put my mind at
ease. Well, it's not working.''
:''ease. Well, it's not working.''


===Day 255: Now Axel's Acting Weird===
===Day 255: Now Axel's Acting Weird===
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:''Axel said she got sent on an important mission, but he wouldn't look at me when
:''Axel said she got sent on an important mission, but he wouldn't look at me when
he said it. I've been wondering what's wrong with Xion all this time, but now
:''he said it. I've been wondering what's wrong with Xion all this time, but now
that I stop and think about it, Axel's not himself either.''
:''that I stop and think about it, Axel's not himself either.''


===Day 256: Xion's Gone Missing===
===Day 256: Xion's Gone Missing===
:''Xion has gone missing, but nobody said anything about her being hurt, so that's
:''Xion has gone missing, but nobody said anything about her being hurt, so that's
good...I guess.''
:''good...I guess.''


:''Did she run off? That doesn't make any sense. Xemnas told us not to go after
:''Did she run off? That doesn't make any sense. Xemnas told us not to go after
her. The way Saïx explained it, it's almost like they don't think she's worth
:''her. The way Saïx explained it, it's almost like they don't think she's worth
getting back.''
:''getting back.''


:''What is going on?''
:''What is going on?''
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===Day 257: He's Avoiding Me===
===Day 257: He's Avoiding Me===
:''I want to talk to Axel about Xion, but I can't seem to get ten seconds with the
:''I want to talk to Axel about Xion, but I can't seem to get ten seconds with the
guy.''
:''guy.''


:''What am I supposed to do? I can't believe he's avoiding me. We're supposed to
:''What am I supposed to do? I can't believe he's avoiding me. We're supposed to
be friends.''
:''be friends.''


===Day 276: By the Sea===
===Day 276: By the Sea===
:''I don't remember much about today's mission—just that it was by the beach. Or
:''I don't remember much about today's mission—just that it was by the beach. Or
was it? The mission didn't even feel real.''
:''was it? The mission didn't even feel real.''


:''Me and Axel agreed to start looking for Xion tomorrow.''
:''Me and Axel agreed to start looking for Xion tomorrow.''
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===Day 277: No Sign of Her===
===Day 277: No Sign of Her===
:''I've looked everywhere for Xion, in every world, but there's just no sign of
:''I've looked everywhere for Xion, in every world, but there's just no sign of
her.''
:''her.''


:''Where is she? Why did she leave the Organization? I don't get it, any of it.''
:''Where is she? Why did she leave the Organization? I don't get it, any of it.''
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===Day 296: Castle Oblivion===
===Day 296: Castle Oblivion===
:''There's one place we haven't checked yet to see if Xion's there—Castle
:''There's one place we haven't checked yet to see if Xion's there—Castle
Oblivion. When I brought it up with Axel, he surprised me by saying that C.O.
:''Oblivion. When I brought it up with Axel, he surprised me by saying that C.O.
is where Xion comes from. I guess he just found out himself.''
:''is where Xion comes from. I guess he just found out himself.''


:''Is that where she is?''
:''Is that where she is?''
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===Day 297: Who is That Guy?===
===Day 297: Who is That Guy?===
:''I went to Castle Oblivion to find Xion, but I don't remember anything about it.
:''I went to Castle Oblivion to find Xion, but I don't remember anything about it.
Axel said I collapsed as soon as I got there.''
:''Axel said I collapsed as soon as I got there.''


:''I woke up in Twilight Town, and incredibly enough, Xion was there. But she
:''I woke up in Twilight Town, and incredibly enough, Xion was there. But she
wasn't alone—there was this guy with her, and he was wearing the
:''wasn't alone—there was this guy with her, and he was wearing the
Organization's cloak. I could tell by his build that he wasn't one of us,
:''Organization's cloak. I could tell by his build that he wasn't one of us,
though. Who is he?''
:''though. Who is he?''


===Day 298: Some Other Way===
===Day 298: Some Other Way===
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:''I know she's acting weird, but I hardly recognize Axel these days either.
:''I know she's acting weird, but I hardly recognize Axel these days either.
What's going through their heads? I feel so left out.''
:''What's going through their heads? I feel so left out.''


===Day 299: Sora?===
===Day 299: Sora?===
:''Xemnas told me that "Sora" is the connection between me and Xion. But just who
:''Xemnas told me that "Sora" is the connection between me and Xion. But just who
exactly is Sora?''
:''exactly is Sora?''


===Day 300: No Words===
===Day 300: No Words===
:''For the first time in a while, the three of us met up on the clock tower. None
:''For the first time in a while, the three of us met up on the clock tower. None
of us really knew what to say.''
:''of us really knew what to say.''


:''We used to talk each other's ears off, but I guess those days are gone.''
:''We used to talk each other's ears off, but I guess those days are gone.''


:''So much has happened lately that I've been forgetting to write about those
:''So much has happened lately that I've been forgetting to write about those
pictures in my head. Now it happens even when I'm not on missions. More often,
:''pictures in my head. Now it happens even when I'm not on missions. More often,
too.''
:''too.''


:''They even show up in my dreams. Xion told me she has dreams, too. Is all of
:''They even show up in my dreams. Xion told me she has dreams, too. Is all of
this connected?''
:''this connected?''


===Day 301: My Dream===
===Day 301: My Dream===
:''I dream all the time now, but I don't sleep well. I wake up tired every day. I
:''I dream all the time now, but I don't sleep well. I wake up tired every day. I
guess that makes them nightmares, not dreams.''
:''guess that makes them nightmares, not dreams.''


:''Xion and Axel don't come to the clock tower anymore. I thought maybe if I got
:''Xion and Axel don't come to the clock tower anymore. I thought maybe if I got
everything off my chest with them, I might stop having the nightmares...but so
:''everything off my chest with them, I might stop having the nightmares...but so
much for testing that theory.''
:''much for testing that theory.''


===Day 321: No Energy Left===
===Day 321: No Energy Left===
:''I feel so tired—almost disconnected from my body. The dreams have gotten
:''I feel so tired—almost disconnected from my body. The dreams have gotten
stranger. Now I wake up with water on my cheeks. I don't know how it got there,
:''stranger. Now I wake up with water on my cheeks. I don't know how it got there,
but I think there's something really wrong with me.''
:''but I think there's something really wrong with me.''


:''Today I was teamed up with Xion. She seems to be in a lot better shape than me.
:''Today I was teamed up with Xion. She seems to be in a lot better shape than me.
We had ice cream together, something we hadn't done in a while.''
:''We had ice cream together, something we hadn't done in a while.''


===Day 322: Another Dream===
===Day 322: Another Dream===
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:''She's a puppet? A mirror that reflects me? He's talking nonsense. I can't trust
:''She's a puppet? A mirror that reflects me? He's talking nonsense. I can't trust
him anymore.''
:''him anymore.''


===Day 354: Who Am I?===
===Day 354: Who Am I?===
:''I don't understand the Organization. I don't understand Axel...I understand
:''I don't understand the Organization. I don't understand Axel...I understand
myself least of all. Why do I keep coming back to the castle?''
:''myself least of all. Why do I keep coming back to the castle?''


:''Me and Xion are special, connected by "Sora." If she's a puppet, maybe I am,
:''Me and Xion are special, connected by "Sora." If she's a puppet, maybe I am,
too.''
:''too.''


:''I don't know what I am.''
:''I don't know what I am.''
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